Reality and Acceptance

For me to start building self-discipline, I have to know where I am right now, the reality that I'm facing of my own habits.

I accept this reality, and I WANT TO CHANGE (I'm very sleepy right now, but I will not take a nap, no matter what, that's my goal today):

• I don't bath/shower every day
  
• I don't get up at the same time every day, sometimes I skip class because of sleep
  
• Fortunately I'm not overweight, more like underweight
  
• I have sleep/bed addiction. I want to break it. I would lie in bed with my mind active, waiting to fall asleep. It's very bad. I want to break it.
  
• My inbox is not empty (dont know why this is relevant)
  
• My room is currently organized, but it can be better.
  
• How much time do you waste in a typical day? On a weekend? Ok, this is a very painful question. But I think I waste around 80% of the day beside class time. I tend to browse the internet with no purpose, watch trivial dramas, videos, and drift off a lot when I work.
  
  
• If you make a promise to someone, what’s the percentage chance you’ll keep it? It's very sad, but 50% probably. I try not to make promises. But I sometimes don't meet my commitments, such as going to class or work. I want to change.
  
• If you make a promise to yourself, what’s the percentage chance you’ll keep it? Low chance...It's sad, I don't often think of making promises to myself.
  
• Could you fast for one day? Never tried it
  
• How well organized is your computer’s hard drive? Not too bad, but not very organized either
  
• How often do you exercise? Almost never
  
• What’s the greatest physical challenge you’ve ever faced, and how long ago was it? Too long ago, I am very embarrassed now thinking about it. Maybe in the UK, when I had to bike that early morning to WU office.
  
• How many hours of focused work do you complete in a typical workday? Very sad, but recently 2 hours....or less
  
• How many items on your to do list are older than 90 days? I don't really have a to do list..
  
• Do you have clear, written goals? Do you have written plans to achieve them? Not really
  
• How much TV do you currently watch? Could you give up TV for 30 days? I watch to much internet TV, I don't think I can give up for 30 day, but I can reduce it.
  
• How do you look right now? What does your appearance say about your level of discipline (clothes, grooming, etc)? I don't care much about how I look
  
• Do you primarily select foods to eat based on health considerations or on taste/satiety? Both
  
• When was the last time you consciously adopted a positive new habit? Discontinued a bad habit? It was 2 months ago, I felt really good for a while, but I fell back to my old habits and negative emotions, I am very ashamed to think about it. But my new habit was based on some negative restriction of my personal life, so I want to change that this time.
  
• Are you in debt? Do you consider this debt an investment or a mistake? I am in debt - and investment - it's for school, I don't have a choice.
  
• Did you decide in advance to be reading this blog right now, or did it just happen? A bit of both.
  
• Can you tell me what you’ll be doing tomorrow? Next weekend? Tmr I will start looking at Econometrics research baby, and go to blackrock event and opt workshop.
  
• On a scale of 1-10, how would you rate your overall level of self-discipline? Four. Very embarrassed.
  
• What more could you accomplish if you could answer that last question with a 9 or 10?

Self Discipline

It's been a long time since I wrote something on this blog. Too many events have happened to be recalled and recorded here, so no, I'm not gonna do that today. Maybe another time.
It's a warm sunny spring day out, and I'm sitting here by a huge window of my dorm's common room, comfortably on an olive couch, looking out to a beautiful scenery and thinking to myself "I am very sick of feeling like the biggest procrastinator in the world.

So here it is, my same old saga of learning personal development. Old it might be, there's always something new I get each time I spend time on this subject.

Self-discipline is the ability to get yourself to take action regardless of your emotional state.

It's a progressive training. Small success leads to bigger success.

The idea is too keep pushing , near the limit , but NOT just within comfort zone.

Self-discipline needs to be built up over time, similar to how you start weight training. The more you challenge yourself, the more persistent you are, the better you get at it. Things that seem impossible will eventually become doable.

There is NO point in comparing yourself with other people. Start where you are now, and aim to get better as you go forward.